september 30 
homeostasis 
interoception
proprioception

september 29
where i am is where i like to be 
cleaned my room
also today shubhra made curry

september 25 
thought my decision would be a final yes but it was sort of me not stopping nodding
i have been slowly nodding yes so when a decision was squeezed out of me i just kept doing what i was already doing 
now things are in motion so i have to not be afraid 

september 24
stressful crying day for me 
i am working on creating a decision
shubhra made me daal
 
september 22
did some tests, decided on stich type, measurements, logistics of assembly 
order of steps, technique for scoring and ripping, size of needle, ironing, fastening, hanging
my mom is teaching me about using the sewing machine with patience 

september 21 
when i don't know i say i don't know
i pray to god for clarity and strength going forward 
i have been carrying a kabocha squash in my purse since 3pm

september 14
as per shubhra's suggestion/inspiration/request
a list of words that can go after the word "pregnant" and make sense: 
sky, tears, pause, city, burp, trash can 

september 13
when they say the green juice will do everything it is going to do nothing
(when it's made of everything it's made of nothing)
a green juice should have only three things in it probably 

september 04 
kitakata paper 
it's been 2 months of searching for the right paper 
im hopeful this one will work 

september 03 
touching 
touching 
touching

september 01 
3 paper stores across chinatown, mid-wilshire, downtown that were on my paper route
2 stores out of 3 that were closed (holiday) 
1 sheet of kitakata paper that i purchased