october 31
halloween
lady bug
costume

october 30
life mirrors life
your health is my health
my breath is your breath  

october 25
shubhra fixed our shower
molly cooked us dinner 
molly shared some beautiful news 

october 24
almond milk from my mom
cardamom, vanilla extract, 1 date, 3 tablespoons almonds, water, salt 
i believe the way forward is to continue saying thank you frequently or all the time

october 23
going away is a gift we give our self 
took a bath
washed my car

october 22
somhow put up in the twa hotel 
i couldn’t believe it i was so happy wandering around
i woke up to the planes taking off right in front of me 

october 21
woke up on the street in nyc after all of us praying the bus could find parking the night before
it felt so special running around the city today and then had a never ending fever dream lyft ride to the airport hotel at one am 
we were driving around in circles looking for the enterance into the hotel so frustrated and laughing 

october 20
we woke up at three am to cross the border and for a second i really forgot where i was from when border patrol asked me 
we are in scranton pennsylvania and there's a low feeling here
i went on a beautiful walk

october 19
toronto
violin in an empty opera house 
traversing the entire city for smoothies

october 18 
i saw niagra falls 
i made three beds 
i texted my big sister she said "dignity is something you give your self always"

october 17
montreal, quebec: the air is beautiful, the trees are beautiful, the streets are beautiful
this cat named lentil sat down next to me
the people i am with thought it was funny that i’m taking so many pictures of the fall trees but then they remembered i am from los angeles

october 16
woke up out of a strange almost concerning dream to cross the border into canada
cambridge today: walmart, laundry, organizing, etc. 
i had a second to call my mom so i did and i cried then attended a fancy dinner in sweatpants by some sort of body of water 

october 15
woke up in still in illinois but not chicago
accidentally walked into a conference for the illinois self storage association in my pajamas 
professionally disoriented but persisting with enthusiasm 

october 14 
running all over chicago
decided last minute to reroute from running one errand to quickly run another errand at a guitar store 
because i decided this something great occurred in very specific synchronistic timing and i was floating the rest of the night 

october 12 
my first time milwaukee
surreal traveling sleeping experience 
confused geographically, emotionally, socially, artistically, temporally 

october 11
very lively today in minneapolis 
there is homecoming for university of minnesota ad halloween bar crawl happening
i am becoming alert to the details of this whole thing

october 10 
i have two duffel bags and a baked japanese sweet potato in a brandy melville bag 
somehow i got flown out to minnesota 
people in minnesota are so warm maybe because it gets so cold 

october 08
fell in love: entered meditation 
cleaned my shoes
impulsively bought a cabinet

october 07
despite the unknowns i will get organized
despite the unknowns i will get organized
despite the unknowns i will get organized

october 06 
surprise and gift from claire in the mail 
perfect necessary object for me especially now 
her work i'm linking here her instagram i'm linking here 

october 05 
every thing feels like it is driving me crazy 
every single thing ever 
a wish came in from egypt today 

october 04 
do something in between errand running and nothing 
witness people, things, inner sensations, and outer sensations 
overreacting = dismissing, internalizing = externalizing, observing = creating

october 03
found my 6s from high school 
it (i) was so the same and so different to now
maybe more soon

october 01 
we went to the vista and saw a movie at 10:45pm
every one at the theater was so excited to be there
also today shubhra made coconut-tumeric cod with roasted tomatoes